Glitter in the Air......

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said “I just don’t care?”

It’s only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning, the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It’s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss, and the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath
And asked yourself “Will it ever get better than tonight?”
Tonight

~Pink from "Funhouse"

Birthday musings

They say that age is just a number, but it's a number that we after a certain point start to dread.

Why is that?.

Is it the painful reminder of time passed, opportunities lost?.

Isn't it funny how when we are young all we want to do is grow up, but once that actually happens all we want to do is go back to a time when we were younger.

It's a strange conundrum. I often find myself wishing I could go back to those carefee times of my life, but as much fun as those years were, with age comes a wisdom and maturity that I don't think I would want to give up.

So what is it about the number itself that inspires so much anxiety . For some it may be because it's closer to a certain round figure (like the big 3-0 in my case).

It could also be the fact that with a certain age come certain expectations (societal or otherwise) and it's the fear of not meeting them that leads to the age- phobia. Or perhaps it's just the simple fact of getting older I don't know....

I think this Pink song sums it up best.

I hide my pain like the rest of them
That's why I'm always laughing
I'm troubled, I'm brilliant and miserable too

That's why I am so funny
I swallow down all my fears
With a bottle made of silver
I've only been here for 27 years
But already my life is over

And I need to unwind, yes, and I
I need to unwind, yes, and I
Want all the time
To be loved, to unwind

My life is like a fairytale
That nobody believes in
I can't remember anything
Not the people, not the places I've been

Just one more day you can make it, babe
That's what I tell myself
And everything that I love in life
It is killing me, 'cause it's bad for my health

And I need to unwind, yes, and I
I need to unwind, yes, and I
Want all the time
To be loved, to unwind

"Unwind"

And, yes in case you didn't catch on to my not-so-subtle hints today is indeed my Birthday, thus the introspection.

Crystal Ball.....

So the new Pink album Funhouse came out yesterday.

And I love it!. I don't know if I can say that it's better then her previous effort I'm Not Dead but it's a very close second.

I'm currently playing it non-stop on my mp3 player.

Aside from the current single I really like "Glitter in the Air", "Sober", and the highly energetic "Bad Influance".

But I think my top favourite has to be a song called "Crystal Ball".

Drinking wine and thinking bliss, is on the other side of this
I just need a compass and a willing accomplice
All my doubts that fill my head cascading up and down again
Up and down and round again, down and up and round again.

Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all.
Just to end up right back here on the floor.
To end up right back here on the floor.

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell.
But I'm not scared at all....

The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring

Love just needs a witness and a little forgiveness
And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace and
I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes.

Oh I've felt that fire and I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned.

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell.
But I'm not scared at all...

Of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

Irony, irony, this hate and love, hate and love
What it does to me, what it's done to me.
What is done...done

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Broken mirrors and a black cats cold stare,
Walk under ladders on my way to hell, I'll meet you there.

Crystal Ball~Pink

The verses are so beautifully honest.

When You Find the One....

Well I was a slick midwestern gal
On a long hard road into southern cal
Didn't find any crime fillin' up all my time
I had the devil in my bones and an angel on my mind

And I drank up all the movies and I searched for happy endings
I turned love inside out till I was perfectly pretending
Still I believed it could be true

That when you find the one
There's no question in the silence
All is said and done when you find the one
When you find the one

Yeah you could say that I was crazy I was that kinda girl
I had to open up a lot of oysters before I found myself a pearl
I had to kiss a lot of frogs to find my grass was green enough
Had to be face down in the gutter to see what is and isn't love

Then I woke from all the dreaming to your taste and to your laughter
I cried till I was dry and now live my ever after
I believe I always knew

When you find the one
There's no question in the silence
All is said and done when you find the one
When you find the one

And when you make the choice to believe in your existence
With hello you will know when you find the one

I believe it could be true
Yes I believe I always knew
And I believe it could be true
And believe i always knew

When you find the one
There's no question in the silence
All is said and done when you find the one

And when you make the choice to believe in your existence
With hello you will know when you find the one

With hello you will know

~Melissa Etheridge


Being a hopeless romantic I love listening to songs that capture that feeling without being overly sappy. This song is just that.

Strong Enough To Break.......

I don't feel myself today
Just a figure in a big monopoly game
Struggle is the price you pay

You get just enough just to give it away
I'm sinking but I'm floating away
Throw me a line so I can anchor my pain
The fabric is about to fray
The fabric is about to fray

Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately

Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in

Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I'm strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I'm strong enough to break

Been running through my mind today
Scenarios to add to your hypocrisy
No one ever takes the blame

But everyone is searching for a cure to the pain
Nothing ever seems to change
Oh, nothing ever seems to change
We just play like broken records in a deaf man's charade

Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately

Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I'm strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I'm strong enough to break

Carry on just a pawn and the same old song
I'm still holding on

The fabric is about to fray

Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately
Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately

Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I'm strong enough

Things keep coming and I keep wondering
I start feeling the walls close in
Things keep coming and I keep stumbling
I start feeling I'm strong enough to break
Oh, I start feeling I'm strong enough to break

~Hanson

This song was the result of the band's struggles with the record label (Island Deaf Jam) and the subsequent split. Perhaps that's why it's particularly well written and one I really relate to.

Not As We....

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure, unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour

Day one, day one
Start all over again
Step one, step one
I'm barely making sense
For now I'm faking it
'Til I'm pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as I
And not as we

Gun-shy and quivering
Timid without a hand
Feign brave with steel intent
Little and hardly here

Day one, day one
Start all over again
Step one, step one
With not much making sense
Just yet I'm faking it
'Til I'm pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as I
And not as we

Eyes wet toward wide open fright,
If God is taking bets, I pray he wants to lose

Not As We~ Alanis Morisette from the album "Flavors of Entanglement"

It might be the current mood I'm in but I'm really identifying with this song at the moment. Actually I think this whole album is one of Alanis best pieces of work in years.

Breaktown.....

Are you ready to lose?
Are you ready to win?
Well I've been losing for so long
I can't begin

I'm a man on the moon
I'm a man on the edge
Well I'm the words you never knew were in your head
To be read

You can't help you're so insecure
Your hurt right down to the core
You're only stuck in your pain today
Welcome to Breaktown

For the first time
It's a great town
For your worst time
When you freak out
There's a road sign
Welcome to Breaktown

Are you ready to quit?
Are you ready to learn?
Are you ready to find the spark inside and let it burn?
I'm the walls that close in
I'm the words you won't say
I'm the voice you choose to keep inside
And lock away
Everyday

You keep it all to yourself
You're just like everyone else
So take a good look around
now....Welcome to Breaktown

For the first time
It's a great town
For your worst time
When you freak out
There's a road sign
Welcome to Breaktown

When you're driving through
There's a room with a view
Just hang around

Welcome to Breaktown

For the first time
It's a great town
For your worst time
When you freak out
There's a road sign
Welcome to Breaktown

Breaktown ~ Hanson

Testimony.....

There's godlike
And warlike
And strong
Like only some show
And there's sad like
And madlike
And had
Like we know

But by my life be I spirit
And by my heart be I woman
And by my eyes be I open
And by my hands be I whole

They say slowly
Brings the least shock
But no matter how slow I walk
There are traces
Empty spaces
And doors and doors of locks

But by my life be I spirit
And by my heart be I woman
And by my eyes be I open
And by my hands be I whole

You young ones
You're the next ones
And I hope you choose it well
Though you try hard
You may fall prey
To the jaded jewel

But by your lives be you spirit
And by your hearts be you women
And by your eyes be you open
And by your hands be you whole

Listen, there are waters
Hidden from us
In the maze we find them still
We'll take you to them
You take your young ones
May they take their own in turn

But by your lives be you spirit
And by your hearts be you women
And by your eyes be you open
And by your hands be you whole

Though it's a song by an artist named Ferron I personally love the Sweet Honey in the Rock version.

Something about this tune that's so simple and yet, quite thought provoking and impowering.

A little song celebrating mom :)

She used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,

Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would
Become the friend I never had

Back then I didn't know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend

I didn't want to hear it then but
I'm not ashamed to say it now,
Every little thing you said and did was right for me,
I had a lot of time to think about,
About the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibility.

Back then I didn't know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
All that you did was love,

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend, My friend

But now I'm sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
All I can give you is love,

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
You're my friend

Mama ~ Spice Girls

I don't usually post songs by the Spice Girls (even though I admit they still are one of my guilty pleasures) but this one is perfectly appropriate.

I think the song really encompasses what the day is all about. So I'll just end by saying Happy Mother's Day!! .

A couple of good verses

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just watch and learn

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Fix You~ Cold Play

Something about those lyrics

I've been a fan of Josh Groban since his appearances on Ally McBeal all the way back in the 90's.

There's just something about his voice that always gets to me (and makes me want to shed a tear or two). Yeah, I know I'm a total softy lol.

This one in particular gets played most frequently in my CD player, it's one of my mom's favouries too. There's just something about these lyrics....

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You Raise Me Up ~ Josh Groban

Do What U Do.......

I've been listening to this song a lot lightly it always makes me think and at the same time always manages to cheer me up. Hope it does the same for all of you;).


Some people like the summer when its hot
Some people like the winter cold
Some people speak their minds when they wanna
And some other people ain't so bold
Whatever it is that you do
You should do, you should do with your head held high
So when you're doing your thing its 'cause you wanna
And they never can ask you why

I say
Do what you do
Say what you say
Mean what you mean when you say
'Cause its your life
Gotta make your own rules
And you gotta do it, do it your own way

Some like it easy when others they like it rough
But ain't nobody gotta like it but you
Girl, boy, boy, girl, girl, girl, boy, boy
Whatever, you should do what you do
How can they tell you that you could or should?
Would or wouldn't
Well ask 'em can they walk in your shoes
'Cause its your life and you do what you wanna
And remember baby its all about you

So if it's on your mind
Then you should speak your peace
And say whatcha say
And if you want it done
Then you should get it done
And do it your way

Do What U Do ~ Pink

Holiday favourites

We all have our favourite Christmas Carols that we listen to over and over on the radio every year around the holidays.

Personally I love all the traditional ones sung by artists like Bing Crosby or Dean Martin.

But there's a modern one that's near and dear to my heart it's a song called "At Christmas" by Hanson.

Snow is falling down as you step out of your car
Presents in your arms and you’ve traveled far
Someone opens the door with a smile on their face
And you know you’ve come to the right place

Family nestled by the fire
Christmas hopes to inspire
Loved ones by your side
You know you’ll kiss your babies goodnight

At Christmas, Christmas
No matter who you are
How far you've come
This is where you belong
At Christmas

Memories ‘round the Christmas tree
Are the sweetest ones that remain with me
It’s a comfort deep inside
Though you can’t stop the race of time
To know that Christmas will always be

Family nestled by the fire
Christmas hopes will be inspired
Loved ones by your side
You know you’ll kiss your baby good night

Well can't you feel the changing, the anticipation
Can you tell we're almost there
Well precious time we're takin', memories we're making
It's Christmas in the air

Now this is what Christmas means to me
Being together with your family
And the wise men who followed that star
To where our baby Jesus lie

Family nestled all around
Baby Jesus asleep so sound
His star shined so bright
On the very first holy night

"At Christmas" ~ Hanson "Snowed In" '97


There's just something about these lyrics, they always remind what the holidays should be about.

And, yes I realize the album is 10 years old, but that's why they call them classics and this album is no exception.

Seriously if you've never heard it before I suggest you put it on your Christmas list you won't be disappointed. I still break it out every year to get into the Christmas spirit.

Thoughts on Holidays

We live in a greedy little world--
that teaches every little boy and girl
To earn as much as they can possibly--
then turn around and
Spend it foolishly

We've created us a credit card mess
We spend the money we don't possess
Our religion is to go and blow it all
So it's shoppin' every Sunday at the mall

All we ever want is more
A lot more than we had before
So take me to the nearest store

Can you hear it ring
It makes you wanna sing
It's such a beautiful thing--Ka-ching!
Lots of diamond rings
The happiness it brings
You'll live like a king
With lots of money and things


Ka-Ching~ Shania Twain


I was listening to this song recently and thinking of how weirdly appropriate it seems for this time of year, with everyone running around spending crazy money, trying to find the perfect gift.

It's really very sad how materialistic you become as an adult, although I suppose the same can be said for many kids these days.

Over and over in my head

Early in the morning
I am reminded how few things change.
We've been through it
Every time it's the same old phrase.
Never should have said it
But you should know what i meant to say.

So we're back on the rocks
Been here before will it ever stop?
I've tried to change
We're gonna fight
So we can make it right.

Livin' in the moment
We fight the fog of the every day.
Monday morning in 20/20 it seems so clear.
Even though i see it
We give into weakness and wind up here.

So we're back on the rocks
Been here before will it ever stop?
I've tried to change.
We're gonna fight
So we can make it right

I'm not giving up
I'm not giving up

If I'm given a reason
Then I'd stop believing and just move on
I can't move on

So we're back on the rocks
Been here before will it ever stop?
I've tried to change.
We're gonna fight
So we can make it right.

I like it on the rocks
I'll take it on the rocks
So we can make it right

On the Rocks- Hanson



For some reason I just cannot get this song out of my head today something about the melody and the lyrics I guess.

But then that could be said for every Hanson song lol. This one is actually off their latest acoustic dvd I really wish they had included it on "The Walk".

A break from the norm

Till my body is dust
Till my soul is no more
I will love you
Love you

Till the sun starts to cry
And the moon turns to rust
I will love you
Love you

But I need to know
Will you stay for all time
Forever and a day?

And I'll give my heart
Till the end of our time
Forever and a day

And I need to know
Will you stay for all time
Forever and a day?

And I'll give my heart
Till the end of our time
Forever and a day

Till the stars fill my eyes
And we touch the last time
I will love you
Love you
I will love you
Love you
I will love you
Love you

I Will Love You~ Fisher

I thought I would change things up a bit and share some favourite music, well ok lyrics with y'all :D.

I can't seem to get enough of this band lately a lot of their songs just really resonate with me. The above song is actually the song that got me hooked.

This song was released all the way back in '97. Which is the year the band was formed.

I guess I must have missed it, since at that time I was more into main stream and I don't think the band was. Actually they've gone back and forth between main stream and independent.

Nonetheless I am SO glad I discovered them when I did, it's a good thing I check out a lot of fan made music videos (that's where I got my first taste).

I would say the sound is a cross between Sarah McLachlan and Evanescence, like those two artists Fisher have a lot of piano driven songs and thought provoking lyrics.

All of which were a big part of the appeal for me. The other part would have to be all the great hooky melodies, a staple for the band.

To get a feel for this great band I would also recommend these songs:

Anyway
Dirty Girl
Rhianna
Missing
Mary
Had To
Believe In Something

If you want to find out more about Fisher check out their site, also check out iTunes for more of their stuff.

Monday blues

I feel the need to express myself through song again lol. And I think I found a perfect one.

It must be Monday! What a dumb day!
Can't drag my butt outta bed
Somebody stop me--I need another coffee
Like a hole in my head

If only I could sleep in--
and wake up on the weekend
Oh, what a dream that would be, yeah
But fat chance for that one--
it ain't gonna happen
Better get back to reality

I could be a slob or keep my job
That is the choice we have
The daily grind can freak your mind
But life isn't all that bad

"C'est La Vie" - Shania Twain

More songs that won't go away

This is another song that keeps sticking in my head lately it's Kelly's new single from her upcoming album "My December".

It's another one of those quintessential break-up songs, well actually I think it works just as well if you're feeling really angry at someone lol. I can definitely see why she chose it as her first single there's a lot of emotion behind it.


I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but i don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned away

I never read your letter
'Cos i knew what you'd say
Give me that sunday school answer
Try and make it all ok

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there for you
Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
Exactly what you would do
Don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but i never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
When your day comes and he'll be through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there for you
Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
Exactly what you would do
Don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but i never will
Never again

[Bridge]
Never again will i hear you
Never again will i miss you
Never again will i fall to you
Never

Never again will i kiss you
Never again will i want to
Never again will i love you
Never

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there for you
Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
Exactly what you would do
Don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but i never will
I never will
I never will

Never again

Never Again- Kelly Clarkson

A little ditty

I have had this song stuck in my head all day today after hearing Lucy Lawless sing her rendition of it at her concert in New Jersey.

It's one of those songs I couldn't get enough of when I was younger and to this day it remains a favourite.

Guess there's just something about those lyrics. It sort of goes with the kind of mood I've been in lately.

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head

And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs

What's going on?

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
And I try, oh my god do I try

I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution

And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar

And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs

What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

"What's Up" 4 Non Blondes

Another One of Those Days

I'm having a really bad day today well day and night I guess, about the only thing cheering me up at the moment is the anticipation of more Tennis on the way this Saturday. There is a song lyric that really underlines the mood I'm currently in.

This song just seems to really resonate with me, certain parts of it do on a daily basis lately. It's a song called Addicted by Kelly Clarkson. And I promised myself I wouldn't do this kind of thing, but with the day I've had what the hell.


It's like you are a drug
It's like you are a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company
I seek is misery all around
It's like you are a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you are a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways if I don't give you up now

It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it Just one more time, then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

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